Somebody Else’s Sky: Something in the Way, 2
Somebody Else’s Sky
Something in the Way, 2
Jessica Hawkins
Contents
Somebody Else’s Sky (Something in the Way, 2)
Stay Notified
Preface
1. Manning, 1994
2. Manning
3. Manning
4. Lake
5. Manning
6. Manning
7. Lake, 1995
8. Manning
9. Lake
10. Manning
11. Manning
12. Manning
13. Manning
14. Lake
15. Lake
16. Manning
17. Manning
18. Manning
19. Lake
20. Manning
21. Lake
22. Manning
23. Lake
24. Lake
Afterword
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Chapter 1
Somebody Else’s Sky (Something in the Way, 2)
If I closed my eyes, I could still see them—all blonde sunshine, ocean-blue eyes, and long limbs. The glint of Lake’s gold bracelet. Pink cotton candy on Tiffany’s tongue. My scenery may have changed from heaven to hell, but some things never would: my struggle to do right by both sisters. To let Lake soar. To lift Tiffany up. The sacrifices I made for them, I made willingly.
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A better man would’ve walked away by now, but I never claimed to be any good. I only promised myself I’d keep enough distance. If I’d learned one thing from my past, it was that love came in different forms. You could love passionately, hurt deep, die young. Or you could provide the kind of firm, steady support someone else could lean on.
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Lake was everything I wanted, and nothing I could ever have. I was nobody before I knew her and a criminal after. The way to love her was to let her shine—even if it would be for somebody else.
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Book two in the Something in the Way series, an epic, 3-book saga of forbidden love...
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Preface
Lake, 1995 - Present Day
Gripping a bouquet of peach and cream garden roses, I peeked around the hotel’s archway. Friends and family quietly filtered onto a perfectly manicured lawn, murmuring as they took their seats for the ceremony.
The sun began to set over the Pacific Ocean, fiery orange dipping into cool blue. This morning’s cloud cover had given way to an unblemished sky. With everything happening around us, it should’ve been easy to avoid looking at Manning, but that always had been, and always would be, impossible for me. My gaze lifted above the crowd and down the petal-scattered aisle. Manning stood under the sheer curtains of a gazebo on the edge of a cliff, his back to me as he spoke to the best man. The first time I saw Manning on that construction site, he’d been larger than life. Today, he was so much more. He commanded attention without trying. His shoulders stretched a bespoke suit, and his hands sat loosely in his pockets as if it were any other day.
He turned his head, giving me the pleasure of his profile. Strong jaw, full mouth, thick, black, recently trimmed hair. Even with the scar on his lip and the new, slight curve of his nose, he looked refined, the sum of all my dreams come to life.
Henry spoke to Manning with the air of a father figure, his hand on Manning’s shoulder. Manning just listened and rubbed his sinfully smooth jaw as he stared at the ground. Henry paused, as if waiting for an answer or acknowledgement, and his smile faded. He looked to the back of the decorated lawn, through the arches hiding the bridal party. He looked at me. Maybe Manning wasn’t as calm as I thought. Maybe he was having second thoughts.
I, on the other hand, had only one thought.
Mine.
1
Manning, 1994
Fourteen months earlier
With my back against a concrete wall, I stared out at the jail yard and flicked ash from my cigarette. If I could look at anything other than electric fencing, concrete, sand, and sweaty men, I would. In ten months, I’d memorized this view. California desert stretched far enough to make the mountains seem an unobtainable freedom, June heat turning the horizon into a watery mirage.
It was still better than staring at the underbelly of a top bunk. I’d be doing that later, but not for much longer. I’d gotten some good news the week before.
“You wouldn’t believe this bitch,” Wills said, clutching a handwritten letter as he paced a strip of dead grass, the bottoms of his orange pants dragging. “She’s threatening not to bring Kaya for the rest of my sentence.”
“So?” I asked through my next drag.
“Cecelia’s going to keep my baby girl from me? Fuck that.”
“She said the same thing last month. And the month before.”
“This time it’s for real. I can just tell.” He ran his hands back and forth over his buzzed scalp, crinkling the paper. “She does this just to fuck with me.”
We’d had this same conversation at least twice a month since I’d arrived. The first time my cellmate had gotten a letter and gone off the handle, I’d told him not to call his girl a bitch. That’d gotten me a riot of laughs from the guys in cells around us. The time after that, I’d asked why, if he’d cared so much about his ‘baby girl,’ he’d held up a gas station at gunpoint, knowing where it could land him?
That time, the laughter never came. “Providing for my family,” he’d said, getting in my face, his chest inflated. “Think you’re better than me, pretty boy?”
Wills was small but built. I had almost half a foot on him and most of the other guys, too. Only a few matched me in height. When I’d arrived, I’d been skinny compared to them but after ten months of lifting and a prison job in construction, I’d bulked up.
Wills’d shoved his hands into my chest, but I hadn’t budged except to raise my eyebrows. He’d backed off, schooling me loudly enough for everyone to hear. “Don’t tell me how to take care of my daughter. Respect.”
Respect. Number one rule in the yard. People my size got more passes than most, but that alone didn’t earn me respect. I had to command it. I couldn’t take any shit.
Wills used my cigarette to light his. He pointed to a spot on the page, but his hand shook so badly, I wouldn’t’ve been able to read it if I’d cared enough to try. “Right here,” he said, butt dangling from the corner of his mouth. “‘You won’t see Kaya again until she’s eighteen,’” he read aloud. “‘By then she’ll probably be two kids deep because of you, and you won’t even be there to experience it.’” Wills looked up at me. “How fucked is that?”
“Fucked,” I agreed.
“Cecelia was the only woman I ever loved.” He aimed his beady eyes at me, and they flashed with excitement. “Too bad she turned out to be such a cunt.”
I wiped sweat from my temple with my sleeve. “Fuck off, Wills.”
“Aw, come on, Sutter. Don’t be such a pussy. Just once, I’d like to hear you rail against tha
t blonde bitch of yours.”
I had to let his shit-talking roll off my back or it’d get me into trouble, and now that I could almost taste freedom, I had to watch my temper. Instead of beating his ass, I got him where it hurt by ripping the cigarette out of his hand and flicking it into the dirt.
He scrambled after it, popping it right back into his mouth. “Asshole.”
The guys talked a lot of shit about who they’d fucked, how, and the ways they’d been fucked over by the women in their lives, and no matter how hard I tried to ignore it, my mind always went to the same place—my sister, my aunt, my mom. Lake and Tiffany. I never spoke of them in there. The guys could be brutal. Sinister. Especially from where they stood, behind bars, already ensnared by the law.
I took my last hit of nicotine right on schedule and tossed the butt. With the hem of my shirt, I cleaned my face of dust and sweat as I went to sit outside the visitor’s room.
I waited thirty minutes to hear my name. “Sutter,” CO Jameson called. “Your blonde’s here.”
I’d stopped keeping track of time, but I always knew the first and last Friday of each month thanks to “my blonde.” Not only had she scheduled work to have those days off, but she drove three hours each way to be here, and that was about as much as anyone had done for me lately. Maybe since I’d left my aunt’s at eighteen.
When I entered the visiting room, Tiffany stood from a bench and smoothed her hands over a short, plaid skirt. I wove through the tables to her and bent for a quick kiss.
She put her arms around my neck. “How are you?” she asked in my ear.
“Same.”
“Same’s good.”
As we hugged, her short top rode up a little to expose her lower back. I pulled away so my mind wouldn’t go where it shouldn’t and took the seat across from her. “Did Grimes call you?”
“Two more months.” She slid a few bags of M&M’s from the vending machine across the table and kept one for herself. “I can’t believe he was right. Are you relieved?”
When my public defender had presented my plea bargain, he’d said I was likely to get out early for good behavior. I’d been skeptical, but it turned out I’d only have to serve half of my two-year sentence. Overcrowding helped moved the process along. There were men shoulder-to-shoulder at every cafeteria table. Out in the yard while we worked, someone was always shoveling or pouring concrete nearby. If I wasn’t careful, they’d forklift my ass. To shower, I waited in line forty minutes to stand under a spigot for sixty seconds. Our cells were close enough to hear guys spanking it. That’d all work in my favor, though, as long as I kept to myself the next couple months.
“I won’t be relieved until I’m breathing air outside this shithole,” I said.
The air conditioner hummed to life. I’d’ve been grateful if it actually cooled the room a few degrees, but it just added another layer of noise to everyone’s conversations. “Did everything go okay with the new guy they put in your cell?” she asked.
That depended on her definition of okay. Considering she wasn’t locked up in here, it was likely different than mine. “It’s fine.”
She narrowed her eyes. “I don’t believe you. Did someone figure out he was, you know . . .” She lowered her voice. “A snitch?”
Wills and I had been assigned a new cellmate last month. Once it got out he’d ratted on a rival gang member for a lesser sentence, it hadn’t taken long for word to spread to the wrong people. “They put it together last week,” I said. “Wasn’t any chance they wouldn’t.”
“And?”
“And nothing.” I didn’t see any point in worrying her.
She put an M&M in her mouth, chewing absentmindedly, then sat up a little straighter, as if she’d come to a decision about something. “Did they beat him up?”
“Well . . . yeah.”
“How bad? You can tell me. You don’t have to protect me like you would some girls.”
Far as I knew, none of the guys in here were worried about scarring their girlfriends. Tiffany wasn’t exactly innocent, but she’d lived a pretty sheltered life. I rubbed my jaw. “Pretty bad.”
“Were you there?”
I shifted in my seat. I’d been working across the yard but close enough to see it go down. If I could’ve intervened, I would’ve, but from day one I’d had a plan, and that was to keep my head down and stay out of trouble.
An inmate a few tables away grabbed his kid’s arm. I glanced at CO Jameson, who was already heading over.
“What happened?” Tiffany asked, sneaking glances as the female guard handled a man twice her size. She escorted him out more nicely than I would’ve. “You can tell me, Manning. You should talk about it. It’s not healthy to keep it inside.”
I didn’t know about all that, but truth was, watching a defenseless man get the shit beat out of him had stuck with me. A man I’d talked to, had shared a cell with, and there wasn’t anything I could do about it. “Slock,” I said. “He’s been in the infirmary a week.”
“Slock?”
It was a common enough weapon in here. Tiffany really didn’t know shit about this stuff if she’d never heard the term. “Lock in a sock.”
“Like the kind I used on my high school locker?”
“Exactly.” I demonstrated winding up a sock, pausing to gauge her reaction. She worried her lip between her teeth but nodded me on. “Then you swing it,” I said. “He lost an eye.”
She sucked in a breath. “Could that happen to you?” she asked. “You’re a big guy.”
She wasn’t even going to comment on the eyeball? I almost laughed. She got points for that. I could think of a few people I’d never burden that image with, but I didn’t want to go there, so I kept talking. “Nobody’s too big to go down,” I answered. “But you don’t need to worry about me. I don’t get involved with anyone’s business. It’s not like you see in the movies. I leave them alone, they leave me alone, and if I do come up against something, I stand my ground.”
“Like that fight a few months ago? Over the M&M’s . . .”
“It wasn’t a fight, and it wasn’t about candy. That fucker stole cigarettes and orange soda from my bunk.” I kept my head down, but there were some things I couldn’t let slide. We had limited access to the commissary store—I couldn’t just replace what he’d stolen. And I couldn’t let it go. Not in here. Respect, Wills would say. So far, it was the only altercation I’d shared with Tiffany.
“You punched a guy over candy and cigarettes,” Tiffany said.
I had to smile at how ridiculous it sounded. “You make it sound like we’re a bunch of toddlers.”
Her posture relaxed a little. “Well, then I probably shouldn’t show you what I brought. None of it’s suitable for children.” She picked up some books from the bench and stacked them on the table. “They’re from a thrift store,” she added quickly, “so don’t wig out on me. They were cheap. You like that author, right?”
I flipped through the one on top, Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas, grateful to have something good to read. Books were the one thing I’d even consider trading cigarettes for. “Yeah.”
“The clerk recommended the other ones. He said if you like Hunter S. Thompson to try Tom Wolfe and . . .” She checked the spine of Slaughterhouse-Five. “Kurt Vonnegut. I read a little of it. It was weird, but I remember you telling me about that cockroach book, and probably not much is weirder than that.”
This time, I did laugh, the rumble in my chest a foreign feeling. A good one. “These are perfect. But . . .” I pulled the next in the pile in front of me—a Webster’s dictionary that looked heavy enough to knock out Wills. “How the fuck did you get this in here?” I asked. “And what’s it for, protection?” I curled it like a weight, but it was surprisingly light.
“Open it, but not all the way.”
I snuck a look under the cover. The first half of the book was intact, but she’d cut a square in the center, about two-thirds of the way in, stuffed it full of loose cigarettes,
then lined the rest with books of stamps. I rarely sent outgoing letters, but guys like Wills could send two a day and postage wasn’t cheap. “Tiffany.”
The air conditioner cut out. “I know, I know.”
I’d told her plenty of times not to waste her money on me. She sold clothing on commission, so her paycheck depended on her hustle, and I kept telling her to put extra money in the bank. But she did stuff like this each visit, bringing me things I could use or sell, greasing the guards, adding to my commissary account. “How much did this cost you?”
“A couple Esprit tops with my Nordstrom discount.” She lifted her hair off her neck, resettling it over her shoulders. My eyes automatically dropped to her chest. “Don’t worry about it. The guards like me.”
“Is that how you get by them in those outfits?” I asked. She dressed to the nines for every visit, from her earrings to her shoes. At first I’d asked her to stop. The guys gave me shit for it, and according to visitation regulations, she wasn’t supposed to dress sexy. Somehow, she always managed to get by with a little cleavage or leg or midriff or something.
“What’s wrong with my outfit?” she asked. “You don’t like it?”
“You look good.” Today, her white t-shirt was tight enough that I could see the outline of her bra. It was definitely padded, her tits big and round, inviting my hands to curve around them, my cock to slide between them. I licked my lips. “Too good.”
“Well, I won’t apologize for that.”
The clock behind my head ticked on, a reminder that time was limited. I forced my eyes back to the contraband in front of me. Nothing killed the threat of a boner like a musty dictionary. “You know you can bring stamps in, right?” I teased her. “Don’t need to get all cagey about it.”